Perception of life

Being struck by covid-19 in the past 1 week or so, I got to think deeply about my perception of life and how I live it. At my initial stages of self-transformation, I discovered my demon of being jealous and envious about everyone around me. Even the minute things that someone possesses would make me feel envious. It didn’t make feel any better about myself so I embarked to unravel the dirt beneath my envy and jealousy.

I questioned my inner motives and what triggered these unpleasant feelings within me. I questioned my sanity and inhumanness all in the name of finding a way out of being envious and jealous. Alhamdulillah, I always had a intuition to listen and self critic my inner self since I was young. So, for this it served me good rather than bad.

While I was in my wave of confusion and finding peace in my heart, I realized that I perceived life as competition, as a game or a risk. I believed life was a either to win or loose nothing else. So. to me when someone is more blessed in any shape or manner, I am a looser while they are the winners. To me, I had to have it all, better than anyone else. Little did I know that Allah had kept aside a revelation so empowering yet so soothing. In my midst of making sense of what my thought process was telling me, I got a revelation.

Life is a gift from Allah, Life is, in it’s essence, given to each one us to serve Allah. Life has been perfectly planned for us by the Al-Mighty. Life was preordained by the Master of the world. Each one of us has been gifted with a life, each day we uncover our lives. Each one of us is in it, in different stages, needs, wins, failures and revelations. No one has it all figured out. My gift of life was meant to be lived the way that Allah decreed it. Others gift of life is the same too.

Each one of us has been placed on this earth with blessings, triumph, trials and wins. We are all in to get the most out of it. Allah has perfectly placed us where we belong and with whom to share our gift of life. This realization, gave me a tremendous peace in my heart. It showered me with coolness in my inner being and from that day, I lived my life with the perception that each one of us deserves a life perceived as a gift.

When we all see that life is a gift we will ignite excitement, passion, purpose and harmony within ourselves and for each other. We will embrace each other, support one another and not be intimidated, envious or jealous with the one who is unfolding a gift better than ours.

I am between peace and harmony with myself now that I have learnt to perceive life as a gift. I spend each day unfolding my gifts, either good or bad, and working closer to fulfill my purpose to the fullest. It was never about how much others was ahead me of, but about how I perceived my life. That was a game changer for me. I love my life the way Allah has perfectly ordained for me. I am, who I am today because of my experiences, choices and mistakes I did and will continue doing. The beauty of life is that Al Wakeel, the Expediter, has perfectly placed us where He sees us fit. Who am I to reject it?

I am a slave of Allah, to Him I belong and unto Him I shall return.

What is your perception of life? Would you make any changes to live better, in peace and harmony?